Life.

I find myself thinking of the famous quote "when life gives you lemons make lemonade" lol If I was asked to sum up the last six months in just three words, I’d probably say that “it wasn’t easy”! I found out a lot about myself, who I am and how much in life I can handle as a woman and person. It was definitely a learning experience, something that I wouldn’t do over. I really enjoyed the last six months, although there were moments that I was weak and wanted to give up, but tried very hard to over come it. I like to think that I did a good job at doing so too. Regrets of this summer, (a regret is to feel sorry for something: to feel sorry and sad about something previously done or said that now appears wrong, mistaken, or hurtful to others). So I’d say that I don’t have a regret, sure there are things I’d like to go back and change or things I shouldn’t have done or said, but I cant change those things. I now need to move forward and make sure that I have learned from that experience and change the next one. But if I was given any do over’s in life, I wouldn’t change a thing. For don’t we all learn from our mistakes and the things we put ourselves through?! Life is about making mistake and experiencing things and life itself. I want to look back and not have regrets, or wish I could have changed something.

When I am passionate about something I whole heartedly care and put my everything into it. That could be good or bad! lol I love deep, I lay my heart out in the form of words that i write to you. Care strongly about the ones closest to me and hurt when they do, and sometimes I say “why do I care so much”? Because I have a big heart, I cant not care. My world is full of quotes, and I just love this one: you give love to everyone and you require none in return.“ This is why I care so much: Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less" - Ghost of Girlfriends Past God made me a caring creature. It also can end badly too, caring to much for someone or something can all to much get you hurt. But that’s when you have to endure life and keep moving on! So I leave you tonight with this: endure the worst of times in life and embrace the good, and keep moving on for the out come is so worth the hardship!!!

Patients.

Patience is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without acting on annoyance/anger in a negative way; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. Patience is the level of endurance one can take before negativity. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast.

For those of you that know me, you know that it's very hard for me to be patient. I can't wait for anything. I always try to get my birthday gifts before my birthday or if I really see something I like I'll ask for it, but always end up getting it myself before my special day. You can't surprise me either I always find the gifts or ruin the surprise. So when it comes to God making me wait or be patient for something, needless to say it kills me. With in the last few weeks I'd have to say that He's really trying to teach me something, and it's definitely waiting and being patient. And we all know they both know that they go hand in hand. This is something that I really need to work on. The whole patients thing wont happen just poof over night either, it gets better with time!! I must say though that I have been doing, okay, well I could be better, but at times it just eats at me. But I am choosing to let Him guide me and teach me, for I know that it's a better ending then anything else. But it always seems that the waiting part goes so slow. I wish I could somehow speed the time up and make it faster, but well I am NOT in control, and I am kind of glad to! I think that I would ruin His great plan. I just need to relax and trust! But with each day it seems hard and harder, trying to keep myself busy and not thinking about what I am waiting on so much and some days it's super easy and other well it seems unbearable.

I always wonder how people with less than me are so trusting, patient, and seem to be more thankful than me at times. But don't get me wrong I am all of those things. But with no home, or food they still have faith and trust that the God they serve will come through! And He always does!! So I leave you on this cold November night with these encouraging words:

Patience reveals our faith in God’s timing, omnipotence, and love. 1Thessalonians 5:14!